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First, I want to apologize for missing last week. I had visitors. The folks came down to bestow gifts upon me. Everyone made out like bandits. All is good. Legos are smack to those who are creative, yet like planned out details... You know, SOCIOPATHS!!!! (High functioning, but still...)

One other quick note... Sinatra Select Jack Daniels... That stuff is proof that A Deity Whom I Question the Existence Of loves us.

The names have been changed or omitted to protect the guilty... Remember kiddies... Guilt and innocence is a matter of timing...

The 2014 silly season is in it's death throes, but it is not without victims. I have a friend dealing with some major issues. The most vile demons come from within. I feel for them and seriously wish I could wave a magic wand and make it all better. I can only offer support and advice.

There is that fine line of  being helpful vs. being controlling/intrusive. I guess the "friendship" is defined by the repercussions of crossing said fine line.

This Xmas eve, I was visited and asked by another friend, "How are you doing?" Very loaded question. Do they expect/want the standard "Doing all right.", "Proceeding with enthusiasm", "Can't complain." or do they want the truth?

I discussed the year in general. Focusing on certain aspects... Most of which, you, loyal reader, are aware of. Last year at this time, I was in love with and had won the love of a good woman. Starting on that high of a note, like when that first apex of a roller coaster is crested, there is only one way to go.

Yes, March was a no fun zone... I did what you are supposed to do... Get back up, rub some dirt on it, and get back in the game. However, I had a new perspective. I was given the vision of how one is supposed to be alone. You take that time to improve YOU.

We discussed work. Which is picking up steam. I am not worried about vacation time, as I will more than likely be earning comp time due to the onslaught of shit coming down the slope. We talked plans for the upcoming year... Scarby in April... Possible Sherwood excursion in February.

We also solved the world's problems... Israel and Palestine? Double Elimination Round Robin Softball Tournament. Want control of the Gaza strip? Better work on your pitching. NEXT!

At the end of the conversation, over one or six drinks,  they remarked, "You... You are doing all right." They meant it literally. In their opinion, which I respect, I am making the correct decisions. Not doing wrong.

This year of our Jack Lord, 2015, could see the realization of many plans I have laid. There is always the fear that plans will get sidetracked or flat out demolished.

By the end of this year, I fully plan on being:

• Credit Card debt free. 'Bout damn time.
• Forced to "Use or Lose" vacation time. SQUEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!
• Full on Pimp. Never stopped this... Comes naturally.
• Owner of a less fat damn dog! She is doing all right, thanks for asking.
• Better shape myself. Drink it in... Drink it in...
• Able to play "Smoke on The Water" on guitar. RAWK!
• in Kansas City at least once. Mom will like this.
• in Augusta for the 25th reunion... If it is happening...
• seen for being an amazing writer, paid to do so, and I go live in Colorado, enjoying "nature".

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In the mean time, the time that is cruel, I am alone. And for the first time I am really okay with it. I do not need someone. That being said, I would not mind having someone in my life to COMPLIMENT IT, NOT COMPLETE IT! 

There is something to be said for having someone not care if they are intruding and send the "Good morning" text. That someone who wants the last thing I see before crashing is their "Good nite" text. A person who initiates conversations... Who asks me questions...  If I continue having to initiate conversations, and draw out everything, I feel like I am a nuisance. No bueno.

I look forward to the day when I plug in my phone to charge at night and it is not at 88%.

Worship music,

d

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